Its hard. Giving up being with the one you love more than anyone for a year. Deployments suck there really isn't another way to put it. I have nights where I cry and cry till I fall asleep. I have days I get so stressed and overwhelmed that I don't think I can handle it anymore. But then I think about all the hugs and kisses, all of the I love you and I miss you's. All of the laughs and smiles, all of the snuggles and the warm fuzzies and it gives me the strength I need to make it to the end. To stay true to my man and never give up on this. Deployments end, and when his does I will be right here waiting for him. He is my one and only and I love him. I will stay true to him and I will support him. I may not be perfect and I may get overwhelmed and break down from times to time but I will always pick myself back up and brush myself off. Because in the end he is my soldier and I will be strong and make it through for him. <3
- Brittany J. Fuller
Sunday, May 13, 2012
Saturday, May 12, 2012
About me and my life
My name is Brittany and my man is in the Army and is currently deployed to Afghanistan. I'm 23 and have never dated anyone in the military before and had never planned on it. But in February 2011I went to Monster Jam and meet my now boyfriend. He wore his uniform to pick up chicks and I thought it was really funny and that he was kinda cute but very goofy. I had no interest romantically in him then. He had an ex- wife, 2 daughters and was ten years older than me. Oh yea, he was in the military. Its not like I am against military men but I didn't want to deal with deployments and such. The night I met him he told me he would be deploying in September of that year and I had no intention of getting involved with him. A few weeks after we meet we got to talking and had a lot of fun. He tried to get me to hang out with him but I was wary. I thought he was cute and that's about it. After a while I really started to like him. I got to meet his 2 beautiful daughters and I fell in love with him almost immediately. By the time August rolled around I realized I had fallen for him and also that the Deployment was about two months away. I had to make a decision weather or not to stick it out or not. In the end I realized there was no way in the world I could walk away from him and the girls I was too far in. So October 13th the girls and I put him on an airplane to Fort Hood, Texas for the start of his deployment. It was a very hard day but I knew I had made the right decision.
The next couple of months took some getting used to. I went from seeing him every day and being able to talk to him most of the day to not seeing him at all. And the worst part was I couldn't talk or text him except for certain times either. I had a couple times where I broke down and cried but for the most part I kept it together. He did get to come home for thanksgiving weekend which was hard on us. we bickered and fought and had a really rough time. I was actually happy to put him back on the plane to Hood. About a week after he got back he got shipped off with his unit to Afghanistan. FOB Salerno A.K.A. Rocket City (Pakistan likes to hit the FOB frequently with mortars and rockets).
Our communication was limited, sometimes going a week without talking. That was hard, but somehow we actually grew stronger in our relationship and fell deeper in love. I took care of everything for him at home and tried to make his life better as much as I could from back in the states. I wrote him daily and about once a week I sent him between 8 and 11 paged letters. writing him about life and me turned into a sort of therapy for me. The one thing he asked for before he left was for letters from home.
In march he came home for R&R right around his daughters birthdays and mine as well. We went to Disney and had an amazing time. we also got to spend time together and we realized really how amazing the other was. It was the greatest feeling in the world to have him home. sadly two weeks ended way too soon and yet again the girls and I put him on the plane to Afghanistan.
This Blog is for me to talk about him, life, how I cope, and just life while the man I love is deployed.
The next couple of months took some getting used to. I went from seeing him every day and being able to talk to him most of the day to not seeing him at all. And the worst part was I couldn't talk or text him except for certain times either. I had a couple times where I broke down and cried but for the most part I kept it together. He did get to come home for thanksgiving weekend which was hard on us. we bickered and fought and had a really rough time. I was actually happy to put him back on the plane to Hood. About a week after he got back he got shipped off with his unit to Afghanistan. FOB Salerno A.K.A. Rocket City (Pakistan likes to hit the FOB frequently with mortars and rockets).
Our communication was limited, sometimes going a week without talking. That was hard, but somehow we actually grew stronger in our relationship and fell deeper in love. I took care of everything for him at home and tried to make his life better as much as I could from back in the states. I wrote him daily and about once a week I sent him between 8 and 11 paged letters. writing him about life and me turned into a sort of therapy for me. The one thing he asked for before he left was for letters from home.
In march he came home for R&R right around his daughters birthdays and mine as well. We went to Disney and had an amazing time. we also got to spend time together and we realized really how amazing the other was. It was the greatest feeling in the world to have him home. sadly two weeks ended way too soon and yet again the girls and I put him on the plane to Afghanistan.
This Blog is for me to talk about him, life, how I cope, and just life while the man I love is deployed.
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